Everytime I think about the story, it seems to get more complicated.
The truth is that God will not allow my name to be continually tarnished and myself and my person to be shamed for something I didn’t do.
Why God shines His favor on me and protects me in this way, I do not know. I assure you that I’m not worthy of such of His attention and vast love and care.
Yet I see our Lord working daily, what seems like tirelessly to me, to prove I am innocent in the Kyle saga.
The fact that He would shine His grace upon me is a true testament of His loving involvement in the lives of His children.
And I say to you, again, I AM innocent.
The things I’ve been accused of are not true and every day I wait for God, and God alone, to show the world that I have NOT lied nor done anything deceptive, but rather, that I stand before you blameless, simply as a girl who fell in love with a man (AFTER he was 18) who never loved her back.
The plain and simple truth is that Kyle is incapable of loving someone. He only selfishly loves himself and HE is his biggest idol.
He would rather see me die than for his biggest secret to come out- that I’ve been telling the truth this entire time, in absolutely everything I’ve said.
His sins are great and the Lord knows them…
But so do I.
Along with two others, Ryan Asdell (his twin brother), and Ben Levi, Ryan’s closest friend.
When I shared with the world how Ryan knew about Kyle’s involvement in my life, Ryan lied. He didn’t want to admit anything, for whatever reason. But he didn’t lie to everyone…namely Ben.
Ryan told Ben the truth and Ben’s known ever since, but Ben, being a cautious man, felt the need to verify facts. He didn’t necessarily believe Ryan at first, so he started investigating the matter on his own.
Since then, Ben has been able to get on all my stuff, the same as the boys, and refreshes and flips my phone images to answer “yes” and communicate with me as well, same as the other two.
Ben knows the truth, he’s seen it and I don’t think he would lie to you, but he feels like he’d be betraying the confidence of a friend by going forward himself, even though, God has commanded him to go forward.
I have waited over three months now.
Waiting for Ben to tell the truth. Waiting and hoping that he’d see my deep pain and suffering and help a sister in Christ out, but he has not.
Now, God is asking ME to go forward and share with you his name, in order that you question him and find out the truth, the truth that I have been telling you all along.
Now it is with a heavy heart, I write this post, for I had hoped Ben would go forward on his own and claim whatever honor and integrity there would be in saving a girl who’s been oppressed illegally for around 8 years.
But the Lord’s will must be done and if no one else will stand, I will.
I will.
I will.
I will.
Let God’s will be done, and let His vengeance supersede any of my words. Let Him justify me and right all wrongs. Let the truth come out. Let my name be cleared. Let all deceivers and evil ones be thoroughly punished for their great sin. Let the world know, Sarah Titus is innocent. Come what may.
Update: November 3, 2023. Ben has not told the truth about what’s going on and he fights to be with me (romantically) daily. I do not like Ben in this way, not as a friend or romantically. He is NOT a godly man, no matter what it looks like on the outside. He is evil and sinister in his heart and does not care about my well-being. All he cares about is winning the competition the boys are in (the competition: to get me to be with them romantically- and yes, they all three are and have been trying) and I refuse to be with any of them.
Because of my virtue and purity, I will not be with men who are bad and they are ALL….bad. Ryan, Kyle, and Ben. In their hearts, they are not good guys and I do not want to date or marry any of them. In case you’re wondering. Ryan is playing (publicly) that he and his wife are together purposely to make me look like a liar and hide his sin. Ryan and his wife have not been living together since January of this year. She had a physical affair while they are married and Ryan left her. The baby she is TRYING to pass off as Ryan’s is NOT Ryan’s baby.
Ryan has been fixed and cannot have children and while he HAS slept with her a couple times AFTER leaving her (due to his own sin), they are not living together and he has been trying to get ME to date him since I met him! If anyone doubts this, let the mom take a paternity test to prove it’s Ryan’s baby. I assure you, it’s not. She is not faithful to Ryan.
All of this makes Ben incredibly angry and now he attacks me a LOT because I refuse to date him. Ben deletes things off my phone, he changes my preset keyboard texts so that I look like an idiot misspelling words I use daily. He called the cops on Ryan for an illegal crime Ryan committed and Ryan and him worked out a deal that Ben went back and took it away with the police. Ben then called the cops on ME for gifting in groups (you can see my Facebook page for more information on that as I gift freely to many people here locally to serve others). There is no reason to call the police on me for gifting and serving for the Lord and he knows it, he sees, but he is angry I refuse to date/marry him. And I will not.
Because Ben has done such evil things to me, he, along with Andy, Kyle’s father, who has been guiding Kyle to sin this whole time, Kyle, Ryan, and Jim Harris will all die physical deaths. Listen, God is angry. God does not like it when His children are oppressed and the second someone goes against me, an orphan and widow both, God acts. He will not allow others to oppress and cage me the way that they are. All these men will die physical deaths because of their massive sin in this situation, mark my words. It will happen and when it does, you will know WHY! It is fair and God is just. God will do it. I don’t know when or how, but I know that God WILL. Because God is fair and what they’ve done to me is wrong and not okay.
