This post is a copy of my newsletter that went out on March 1, 2022 at 9 am (you can see it here). I’m simply storing a copy of it here on the blog as well in order to link to it and include it in the blog posts…
They said I was lying.
They said it was all in my head.
They called me delusional.
And those were the nicest of the words they said about me!!! 😬
They asked me to lie and when I refused, they kicked me out of the church. 😮
They threatened me. They threatened him.
They told him to date other people.
They told him not to be with me.
They, in essence, filed a police report on me.
They tried to stop God’s will in every way possible, through every means possible.
But today, TODAY is the day YOU find out they DID…NOT…WIN. 👏
Why?
👉 Because God’s will cannot be thwarted. Job 42:2.
See years ago, God betrothed Kyle and I together. So when some people are saying to leave him or to not be with her, they are not only going up against the God of the universe, they are asking us to sin.
And sin is a big part of this story, unfortunately. Satan has won for a long time, just as he does here on Earth, but he won’t always win. In the end, much like today, God wins the battle.
I begged Kyle to tell the truth. All these years. They threatened him, they oppressed him, they kept him in their little box. And while we should never listen to sin, he did. For a long time, actually.
But as the story would go, a girl is dead, Kyle DID lose everything just like God said he would if he didn’t obey, and…he FINALLY, and thankfully, obeyed God!!!!!!!! 💎🎉💕 It took him losing everything and sometimes, God has to take us to the depths of the lowest places in order to get us to look to Him. It’s a sad reality for many people.
I couldn’t be more proud of him for finally obeying. And, not only are we betrothed by God, He has asked us to make a covenant before Him and the entire world, along with each other to being engaged officially. I’m happy to announce, we are now OFFICIALLY ENGAGED!
Sometimes stories don’t go how you think they will. Sometimes, it takes a lot longer to get what God has purposed for you, but if you wait, if you are patient, if you endure and are faithful to the end, you will realize that God is there the whole time. He doesn’t leave us, and He and He alone, is in full control of everything.
To all those that DID believe in us, you are blessed in the hearing of this word. Faith in the unseen will always be yours. 💯💎
To those that didn’t believe me, I am vindicated. Thank you Lord Jesus!!! 🙌
To those that try to stop us from being together, you go up against the God who made the entire world and everything in it.
Please repent and turn from your sin.
It is NOT sin for two people to be married who are different ages and the Lord God Almighty has ordained this purpose for us.
Kyle lost his job. He lost his apartment. And a girl is dead who tried to come in between us. He has already punished many of my enemies who mean to harm me. God….means….BUSINESS!
Nothing or no one will stop His will from being done. And in the next few months, you’re going to see that happen more and more as God PROVES to everyone very publicly, what I’m saying is 100% true!
I beg all those who disagree with me and Kyle to repent of their legalism, to repent of their opposition to the will of God, because God is here to serve justice and vindication. He will not let things slide. He will not be silent. He is a fair and a just God. 💯
Watch and see all that the Lord will bring to pass and for more of the story to unfold before your eyes. See that the Lord your God is mighty to save. He doesn’t leave us or forsake us even though we are such sinful creatures, and He always has our best interests at heart. He is worthy to be praised and ALL glory and honor goes to Him now and forever. I am beyond happy to announce our engagement to you and I can’t wait to share more!
Follow up questions from you regarding that newsletter are answered below…
But you’re really gonna sit there and say “a girl is dead” in your email and not tell us what happened?!
I emailed Kyle as to have written record that I am and have been trying to get him to repent this entire time. It was one of the things God asked me to do over the years in order to prove my innocence all along. My letter stated this:
(I’m blacking out my personal email address in that screenshot so I don’t get spammed)
It was after that, that he lost his job (he’s now on unemployment unfortunately, due to his sin of rebelling) and something happened with his apartment. I’m assuming he doesn’t live there anymore. As for the girl portion of it, his neighbor touched him VERY inappropriately in a public setting. God judged her and she is now deceased as a result of it. That’s all I know. It all happened incredibly quickly and is very sad. Her motives were incredibly impure and like I have said all along, it’s God’s will we be together and He has and will protect that relationship.
Congratulations on your engagement! Praise God for being so faithful and lifting you both up to overcome sooo much! i’m wondering if there’s someone out there for me too. how do you know if God is truly behind a relationship?
Thank you. 💖 For me, there’s been no denying it. God convicted me before I even met him that I would meet him during my move. I didn’t think it was a real conviction but it ended up being true. The truth is that God has not let EITER of us run away from this. There have been times, much more for Kyle than me, but I have run away too. Both of us have tried to leave the relationship, even but momentarily, and God always brings us back together over the years. I know that it’s God’s will. There’s no mistaking it. I think that it IS a different situation than most. God has called me to be like Moses. To be a leader of a nation and this is the way in which He is setting all that up. It is His to set up however He wants.
When God first convicted me that He wanted me to be like Moses, I told Him that I couldn’t speak, that I couldn’t be a public speaker because I’m shy. I’m an introvert and I, like Moses, asked for help. I asked God to bring me someone that would help me be the woman He wants me to be and He convicted that He would. It was very clear from the get-go, that Kyle is that man. He’s my Aaron. But there’s also human will in this too. Kyle DOES have a choice to obey God or not.
If you’re looking for a relationship designed by God, I would pray about it and do not seek any men at all. IF it is God’s will you should be married, and you are not seeking, if God lands the guy in your path, you will know it’s from Him and not from you. 😊 This is what happened in our case. I was not looking. I swore off men forever, thinking they are all scoundrels. I’m still not convinced they’re not! 😂 But Kyle is one of the best men I’ve ever met, even though…he’s got a little scoundrel in him too! He does truly wants to be godly and realizes how far he has to go to be there (as I am far away from who God wants me to be also). This situation really tripped him up a lot and that’s in no way an excuse, but it is not his NORMAL behavior to lie and deceive as he has done.
I’m a Christian and believe in Gods will but it’s not a way of struggling, suffering, or death. Jesus died for our sins so that we would not have to suffer in the same manner.
I would start with reading James 1. It is very clear we will suffer in this life, EVEN for righteousness sake. God is fair and loving and just. He punishes His children, chastises them just as we punish our children when they disobey BECAUSE He loves us. He allows His children to suffer, even when they are innocent for a purpose (read: Job).
God does not promise us to live a life free of suffering. Look at Paul’s life (how many times was he shipwrecked? I lost count). Job suffered because Satan and God were talking about him. John was beheaded. Esther suffered great anguish to go to the King. She could have died.
To say that Christians don’t suffer just because they are Christian is heresy. There’s so much pain and suffering we go through because we live in a fallen world. Yes, Jesus died for us, but that doesn’t mean we don’t sin and don’t ever have to repent.
If you want to read more on it, definitely check out this post, God’s Purpose in Our Punishment. 🤗
How long have you been together? Are you saying you weren’t engaged or married because of his sin.
We first spoke on May 23, 2015 when him and his family helped me move. We have been friends since around the latter part of December of that same year, then agreed we wanted to court (not date) and are now engaged. God has betrothed us, that is certain, but I’m not sure since when He betrothed us. It’s been at least a year that we are betrothed by God, but I don’t know how much further back it was. It could have been when we met, but I have no way of knowing.
That’s correct. There are blog posts over the years that kinda walk through the steps. It’s a long story but basically, God intended us to be together and he lied and ran away (think: Jonah) from God’s will. After that, he wished to tell the truth, but it got so far out of hand he felt like he couldn’t just tell the truth NOW. Too much damage had been done. He has fully repented and doing what’s right privately (obeying God). Now, it’s time for him to do what’s right publicly!
I admire your ability to stand by what God tells you, to hold firm and not waiver and stand by what you believe no matter what and God is blessing you for it.
Thank you. I appreciate that. 🥰 It’s not always easy, but we must either stand and obey God or be punished ourselves. I know His wrath (His love is just as strong and a perfect balance), but I don’t want to be on His bad side of things. Punished and chastised for not obeying. I’ve seen what His punishment has been to others and to myself in the past. I was homeless because I wouldn’t listen to God. He brought me low in order that I listen to Him (and ultimately give my life to Him at that point). I never wanna go through something like that again. Sin and punishment is always a sad reality, but a true one for those who are unrepentant. Please continue to pray for more people in this situation as they stand in opposition to God’s holy will and thus put themselves in danger of being punished by our great and glorious God if they do not repent. God is a God of justice. 🙌
You did not give up or give in, you hung in there with your beliefs, you let God take the wheel and take everything to that one spot where it all made sense and brought you together. Congratulations again to you both, a true testimony for folks to see that God is in control.
I love how you put that. God IS in complete control, absolutely. He always has been and always will be in full control. He alone is God. <3
I can’t wait to hear all about how God unfolded your story – and if you are planning a wedding!!
We are kinda stuck on the wedding date right now. He wants an incredibly FAST wedding month (think: elope within a month) and I am more wanting to wait a longer amount of time (there’s so much to do and I want to make sure he’s taken care of all the necessary steps first!) We haven’t seen each other in person in 6 years, so it’s not your average, run of the mill story either. I feel like it needs a little more time for me to feel “safe” in my heart to marry him.
Are you going to Share pictures with us of the happy couple? I would love to see your engagement photos!
Absolutely. I’m hoping so, I just don’t know how long it will be. There is a really big stumbling block between us in that he wants to see me in person, but I have prevented it. It’s my intention, as a single woman, to always have my kids around at all times when a man is present. Even when there’s a worker working on the house or something like that, I’ve always maintained that my kids are in the room. Not that anything would happen, but as an honorable woman, I feel like this goes without saying. Kyle and I have been courting. We don’t take the approach of dating. It’s always been courting and something we agreed on many, many years ago. So our relationship looks vastly different than others (and also because he’s lied for 6 years about it too. Obviously that plays a major role in it).
My concern I guess, as a godly woman is that I know he wants to be physically intimate. He feels that that’s a normal and healthy part of a relationship and things like that ARE, as long as there’s no sex going on (premarital sex is sin). But I come from a very different background. I want to remain completely pure and I don’t even want to kiss before marriage! Kissing can lead to other things and before you know it, you’ve sinned, so I want to make sure that I’m staying FAR FAR away from anything like that! I’ve only kissed one man my entire life. My ex-husband. I was a virgin before our wedding day and have not even so much as kissed anyone else, ever, in my life. And it’s SOOOO important to me to remain pure in all areas.
Kyle doesn’t exactly see it that way- he wants the normal, healthy relationship. He wants to be married very quickly, within a month and I’m like, no, we have things to take care of, let’s wait 3 months at least. Until we get this figured out, set in stone and agree and I feel comfortable to trust him as a godly man again, I don’t want to see him in person.
After 6 years of lying to everyone and I’m not sure if he still IS letting the world believe a lie at this point, there are steps and one by one those steps must be taken care of. For me, I want to wait until those steps ARE taken care of, you know what I mean. I don’t want him to see me in person until the world knows FROM HIM, not just from ME, that this is all legit.
So, we have stumbling blocks that need to be worked out and it can’t GO fast. I’m not okay with it. I’m trying to keep as much as possible private, so as to respect him, but it’s very difficult for someone to have gone from 6 years running from God’s will and lying to everyone to obeying God. Trust has been broken and he can’t just change everything overnight and I don’t expect him too. I KNOW not kissing outside of marriage is the right thing to do for me! In my gut, in my soul, I KNOW it’s right. But I have to wait for HIM to know it too and so it puts us backwards on each step like this, where I have to wait for him to be on board with things.
Sometimes he rebels a lot and it feels like it takes forever. Sometimes, he listens quicker. I feel like if a woman doesn’t want to do anything, the man should respect that. He’s taking time to think things over and what he wants (he’s super logical and takes a few days to make a decision). I just want to be godly. I want my life to honor the Lord and I’m willing to do whatever that takes. I would continue to pray for him as he still has a long way to go to be the man that God wants him to be.
Yes, there’s healing. Yes, there’s restoration. Yes, there’s repentance and forgiveness, but it takes time. I’m not willing to just jump into things after he’s lied for so long. I need to be smart.
In the meantime, I work with Kyle to work through these issues in private and I trust and rest in the Lord that He knows what He’s doing and He’s working in the situation. My trust is only in Christ. Our lives are in His hands alone and I am watching along with the world to see how He takes care of all this. One day at a time, letting the Lord lead. 🥰
UPDATE: Kyle and I are no longer engaged. It was brought to my attention that he has cheated on me multiple times while we were together. I called the engagement off and broke up with him. We are no longer together.
