There were a million reasons why I shouldn’t do it.
- I’ve never been on TV before, I won’t know what to say, what to do, how to act. I’m not an actress.
- I have absolutely no previous video experience at all. I shot a couple 1 min clips of my kids on a camera once. How could I possibly film myself AND talk to the camera at the same time?
- I’ll have to completely give up control over what millions of people see of me. And G-gads, millions of people WILL see me.
- What if my hair is wrong? What if I mess up? What if that shirt makes me look fat?
- I’m not good enough. Why me?!
All these fears and thoughts were running through my head when CBS asked me if I wanted to make a viewer video for the Rachael Ray show. I have been a follower of Rachaels’ for years. Before she got married, way back when her hair was short and she looked like a little girl compared to now.
Me? Are you sure you have the right person?
I didn’t get back to them right away. At first to be honest, I thought it was a prank. Where’s Ashton Kutcher? Am I being punked? And yet, it WAS real, and all of it orchestrated by God to get me out of my comfort zone.
The truth is…that I’m not an overly outgoing person. I used to be. Back in high school. I’d talk to anyone. I was annoyingly outgoing. I’d talk to a stick if there was no one else around. LOL.
But fast forward 14 years of abuse in every sense of the word, and I’m a lot more wallflower-ish then I was back then. I like being in the background helping others. Spotlights, lime light, it’s just not my thing.
I’m perfectly happy doing a job like a makeup artist does, making someone ELSE look fantastic while I’m in the background. I love helping others. I love to serve.
But, that’s not what God has planned for me…and it’s scary.
It’s scary doing something different. Something you’re not used to. Something out of your comfort zone. And I can’t tell you that having gone through the experience, I’m not grateful it’s over! Phew. But, I can also say with confidence, that God stretched me farther than He’s stretched me since my ex-husband left, and that He had me in His hand the entire time.
You see, my life is not my own. I was bought with a price, death. Jesus’ death to be certain, and there’s not anything that I wouldn’t give up for Him. I don’t say that lightly, I’ve lost a lot to follow Him over the years, but I know that He has my best interest in mind. That everything He allows in my life, whether good or bad, is for my good and His glory. If you are Christian, the same is true for you.
God will stretch us beyond what WE think we can handle…sometimes just to show us that He’s in control and that He can handle anything. I know that one day, I will be speaking to many women for His sake (He’s called me to be a public speaker), and I’ll look back on this day and laugh at my own insecurities. And I can’t help but wonder, if the same will be true for you.
Will you allow yourself to be stretched?
Will you go after your dreams?
Will you do the thing that scares you the most?
As long as it’s not sin, I encourage you to go for it. 5 years from now…10 years from now, will you be laughing, or will you be ashamed, embarrassed even, that you DIDN’T go after what you knew you should!
Listen, don’t live life on the bench. The world has enough bench warmers as it is…get out there and get in the game!