When You Can’t Keep Juggling

I get the question a LOT…how do you juggle all you do?

It makes me laugh inside when people ask. I never really end up answering them, because I don’t know how.

I feel like I’m drowning most of the time.

Like, I’m juggling 7 balls in the air, and I know that if I make one small mistake, they are all gonna come crashing down.

It’s a lot of pressure to live like that.

There’s so many responsibilities, so many people that look up to me. My time is precious to me, and I don’t feel like I spend it in the most wisest, God-honoring ways possible.

But my pride gets in the way. I look at all the numbers, the stats, the people that I try my best to serve, and I don’t want to let one ball go. Not one.

Even though, it’s killing me. Even though, if I did let a few balls go, I would be a better person, able to serve more people, more genuinely. I would have more time to invest in people at a deeper level, not trying to keep some other, more insignificant ball in the air.

As a blogger, everyone expects certain things…you have to do this and that, have this and that. Be here, be there, be everywhere.

For 33 months, I’ve tried making a name for myself on Facebook. I tried everything…with great success. On one of my pages, I have over 103,000 likes. I worked really hard to get to where I am.

But the higher up I get, the more balls I have to juggle…the more I see it’s all about a phasod. I have 103,000+ likes on Facebook, but what does that matter, if I’m not changing anyone’s life?

Every day, you wake up, you feed your kids, you get on with your day. It’s this whole routine you’ve established for yourself. And sometimes, when you’re truly alone, you look around and you think to yourself, “Is this my life? Is this really it?”

I’ve been looking around this week and I realize that some balls I have in the air, while extremely impressive, help no one. They don’t help you. They don’t help me. In fact, they become a hindrance to what I COULD BE doing. I think it’s important in our lives, every now and then, to do some weeding. Because weeds grow far faster than the beautiful plants.

For me, Facebook is a weed. An unruly weed. It’s taken over my garden, it’s taking up my time. Time that could be spent serving YOU more.

The truth is that I’m prideful. That I find joy, dare I say, even self-worth in high stats.

Because it’s an issue of my heart, because I feel God leading me to cut it out, and because I’ve seen so much hurt and drama on Facebook this year, I’ve decided to have a blog that does NOT have Facebook.

Cue the gasps. 🙂

It’s a personal decision for me, and it’s definitely not a right decision for everyone. But, the one thing that I want to say to YOU, my dear friends, is that, you shouldn’t play by others rules. You need to do what’s best for YOU. Even if it sounds crazy. Even if I lose all my traffic. Even if I lose impressive stats.

We ALL need to have the COURAGE to simply do what’s best for US.

Facebook is not best for me. It’s a huge time suck. There’s so much hurt and pain on Facebook. There’s pride in it. And I’m not saying that you should go out and delete your pages, like I have this week, I AM saying, is that if you want to be a leader, you can’t do what everyone else is doing JUST BECAUSE everyone else is doing it.

They say I can’t run a successful blog without Facebook, and they MAY BE RIGHT…I may fall flat on my face and come crying back, but I want to take that chance. I want to free up my time more, in order that I can be there for YOU.

Facebook isn’t the reason I blog…YOU ARE.

I’m letting one ball go…and I wonder to myself, if you are juggling balls, which ball could YOU let go? It’s hard…it’s REALLY hard, but I encourage you to let just ONE BALL GO in your life…just one. Which one is that for you? How would your life be easier…simpler, if you let just one ball go?