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When You Lose Absolutely Everything

I have always been a very successful woman. It is said of me that when I put my mind to something, I accomplish it.

That’s very much true. I’ve had everything. On the top of the highest mountain, I could overlook everything.

But what if God takes it all away?

You can STILL stand when you lose absolutely everything!

When You Lose Absolutely Everything

Over the last year of my life, God indeed has allowed everything to be taken away.

I sit alone in the corner of my office and weep to myself privately. I have no friends here that comfort me (except my amazing personal assistant Katie, who believes me and has witnessed everything I’m going through, but is not here locally). My friends here in person believe a lie about me.

For I am falsely accused. My church has abandoned me (they ask me to sin and I refuse, so I face severe punishment), my friends abandoned me, the man I love is not here. My blog traffic was 1.7 million/month and has gone drastically down to about 1/3 of that. My income has gone down as well at this moment.

God has allowed everything to be stripped away from me. I only have my hand, in which I hold the truth in, my kids, and my home.

Everything else is gone. I lost everything.

It’s really difficult for me to admit that to you guys. I know that once I say I’m not on top of the mountain, more people who seek only “shiny stuff,” will leave and my traffic will dip lower.

But in all the pain and all the loss and brokenness, there doesn’t sit a girl in the corner who’s given up on everything.

There is a WOMAN who stands in front of you, who says even when everything is taken away from me, I STILL STAND.

God is STILL GOD!

He gives, He takes away for His own purposes. I do NOT FEAR. I look to stories like Job, where he lost everything or Joseph, when he was falsely accused as well and went to jail for something he didn’t do.

I didn’t do it. I’m innocent. It may truly come to pass where my good name and character is ruined to everybody in my personal life, but I stand firm in knowing the truth. I’m innocent. I’m not lying. Those in authority over me are asking me to sin against the Word of God where it is absolutely, 100% crystal clear. And because I refuse, I face severe punishment.

I need you to know this story, loved ones, because I promise you, if you live on Earth and you ARE a true believer, you will endure hard times as well. You may face times in your life where God indeed takes away everything for a season, but hold fast to what you know is true.

Hold fast to God. Because although everything LOOKS LIKE I’ve lost the war, it LOOKS LIKE I am defeated, I am NOT! I have my God and I believe He WILL give me everything back (though different friends/church, etc.) in HIS time.

It’s been the worst year of my entire life. So many trials and false accusations have surrounded me.

Stand firm in your trial. Do not lose hope. Because no matter how the situation looks…my dear friends, God is STILL GOD. He is STILL King. He is STILL on the throne and there’s NOTHING ANYBODY can do…to stop that!

If I suffer, it is truly undue and un-caused. Rather than becoming bitter, I submit my life to the One that gave it. If He should take everything away, it wasn’t mine to begin with; it is HIS.

Let those that persecute me and accuse me falsely do as they wish to me. For I am the Lords and whatever they do to me, does NOT CHANGE THE TRUTH.

Ladies….stand…stand firm in your trials. When you lose absolutely everything…you can STILL STAND.

Here are a couple songs that I am playing over and over lately to encourage myself. Music has a way of affecting our hearts in a way that nothing else can.

Overcomer – Whatever your situation, it’s just a season (Ecclesiastes 3). My favorite line, “You’re not goin’ under, cuz God is holding you right now.”

Born For This (Esther) – My favorite line, “Honesty seems to come with a price.”

All In – My favorite line, “This is life and we all decide, the stand we take, and this is mine.” I refuse to sin to those who are in authority over me that threaten to punish me severely if I do not sin against my God and in their great pride, they do not listen to me.

Are you facing a trial today? Let me know in the comments, I’d love to pray for you!

You can STILL stand when you lose absolutely everything!



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    • Thank you; it’s all for His glory and for other’s strength. One day, the full story will be shared with the world, and when it is, it’s going to blow everyone away!!!

  1. Your email came as a hope to me. I am going through my personal trials as well and at the lowest point in life. I am hoping that I am able to handle this and that the universe gives me power. I wish the same for you. Thank you for pouring your heart. It gives me courage.

    • I’m glad it gives you courage Lata. I wish I could wrap my arms around you and tell you that there will be better days, but the computer screen is a little awkward to hug. 😛 So, I am praying for you and sending you virtual hugs instead! 😀

  2. Hi Sarah I am saying a prayer for you today and I am so sorry to hear about everything you are going through. I have never left a comment before but wanted to tell you that you are part of the reason that I decided I could be a stay at home mom. Right now I am 7 months pregnant with my 1st! I wanted to give you some encouragement that you are making a difference as you did in my life.

    It is true that God can take everything away, but I pray that he builds up your life even better than before. Maybe something that you never even dreamed of could happen.

    God Bless you and Merry Christmas to you and your family!

    xo
    Katie

    • Wow, Katie, thank you so much for letting me know. It’s so great to hear that I am making a different in women’s lives, and helping change not only their futures, but their family’s lives as well. God will build me back up, higher than anyone can ever imagine…I believe that. How and what remains to be seen, but I can’t go lower…that’s for sure. 😛 lol. So, upwards it is! lol.

      Thank you for your prayers. I really appreciate them! <3 Saying a prayer for you and your new little one....congratulations!

  3. Hi Sarah,
    I’m fairly new to your blog, but I feel such a connection to the things you write about. You are a child of God and I will be praying for you!

  4. Sarah,

    I want you to know, you are NOT alone. I do not know YOUR story at this time, but I know how things can get twisted and how things can change even when you remain faithful. The Lord’s got this! He’s got YOU! And, just so you know, you’ve got me if you need a shoulder or an ear. You have been an inspiration for me and I will be praying for you. Our heavenly Father always wants only the best for us, and sometimes it means things have to change. Remain steadfast, keep on trusting, and above all, never lose the Faith in our Redeemer! Think on what that word – Redeemer means….look it up! Research it. Dig into what the potential of that word means. Then, trust! We have accepted His GRACE, now, fall into that Grace and let it envelop you. Rest in his Love.

    Humbly HIS,

    Karen

    • Karen, your comment was inspired by God, I assure you. I prayed an incredibly specific prayer earlier today and God motivated two ladies (you being one) to answer the prayer…maybe just in case one comment wasn’t enough and I doubt. 😛 I indeed, have done an in-depth study on what the word redeemer means several months ago. 🙂 Fantastic study! THANK YOU for being used by God to accomplish His purposes. Although it is hard to hear that things have to change, because I do not wish to walk away from the situation, but have no choice at this point, I know it is true. Sigh. I know that God has better things in store for me and I absolutely CANNOT be a part of a church that asks me to sin (twice- two different topics), period, though I do pray I leave on peaceful terms and not the terms which are currently being presented (they won’t let me revoke my membership). I would have loved to leave quietly, but it seems that it has to be a spectator sport. I’d love prayer for this. I desire nothing but peace and unity, but it is not granted to me. I have literally begged and pleaded with them to no avail. Thank you again Karen for being used by God. <3 <3 <3

      • Sarah,

        Oh, my Dear! Please know you are in the prayers of many! Also, you can be at peace. Maybe I’m not understanding something, but….what do you mean they won’t let you revoke your membership? You write a letter telling them you revoke it, Ask them to cease and desist from contacting you, and you simply walk away. Have it notarized! You have a witness then. Membership is not OWNERSHIP, it is a request to join into something with others, but please understand, that if the membership no longer is in line with your convictions and needs, you have every right to revoke and do NOT need their permission to do so. You just walk away. Do not be concerned with what they are saying about you (even though it hurts, and they don’t know the truth) you have stated that they have asked you to sin on two separate occasions, and this is WRONG! I was in that situation almost 30 years ago. I was being spoken about horribly, and I simply walked away – from both the church and an abusive relationship. It took nearly 30 years for it to come out that my former spouse was bi-polar and schizophrenic and not safe to be around. I am not waiting for any apologies, I gave up on that years ago. Understand that walking away from sin is giving glory to God in itself! You do not need to be in unity with SIN! You need to be in unity with God. You do not need to beg and plead with sinners to be understood. They have no right to “punish” you. You have the right to walk in God’s light, not in their darkness. If they are no longer following God’s plan and truth, you MAY NOT follow their plan! Change is scary – and hard – but in this situation, it seems like change is God’s answer. I can’t remember who said it, but…..To keep doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome, is the definition of insanity……. 😉 Much love and prayer!

        Karen

        • Karen, without getting into the specifics, yes, this is correct. I asked leadership in person about revoking my membership and was told I could not because it is against church policy to allow someone to revoke membership when they are in church discipline. Basically, I submit (and therefore sin) or I am ex-communicated and “will not be able to go to any Bible-believing church in the future,” according to them. Since I cannot sin and refuse to do so, and they refuse to listen and see that it is indeed sin what they are asking (the Bible is 100% crystal clear), I have no choice but to be ex-communicated. I never, in my wildest dreams, thought I would be ex-communicated from a Biblical church for not sinning!!! I’ve always tried my best to obey rules and submit to authority placed above me. However, I will not sin. I have been harshly treated and asked repeatedly to sin for two different topics in their frustration. I get it, we’re all sinners, but I refuse to obey what they are asking, which is sin and goes against my conscience greatly.

          • It seems to me that church leadership is using the threat of excommunication as a way to control people. The possibility of “not belonging” can cause people to do strange things. The people who believe the story that the church is feeding them are not using critical thinking–and I bet few of them have actually discussed your side of the story with you.

            I know you will rise up from this trial. There are 319 million people in the US to be friends with, and plenty of churches where you can find a home. Stay strong!

          • I’m not sure if they are or not; I can’t really judge their intentions or motives, but it is clear at this point, they are just going through the motions of kicking me out, unwilling to hear what I have to say or believe that they could be wrong. Ultimately, they answer to God and every word they speak, eventually, will just have to be all taken back! Because in time…in GOD’S time, my name WILL BE cleared. I am 5,000% sure. This isn’t my first rodeo (meaning, everybody has counted me out before in something and God showed them all wrong)….twice! This will be the third time…some people are hard learners!!! lol.

      • Sarah, I’ve read your blog for a while but like others this is the first time I have commented.

        It’s really, really, really sad that the people who are supposed to be building you up spiritually are the ones tearing you down….I have been in church my whole life and have never heard such a thing as them not allowing you to remove your membership….that sounds ”illegal” if you ask me.

        But, regardless of their intentions…you’re correct…God is STILL GOD….And HE REIGNS….

        May peace surround you like a cloud and may GRACE cover you from “head to toe.”

        • I keep telling myself that…my character is God’s….my life is God’s….not easy at all, but, I know I’m doing what God wants me to do. Thank you for your encouragement. 🙂

  5. I am sorry to hear of your struggles. You are being lifted by GOD and HE will never let you go. You have been a blessing to me and many other women. Thank you for telling us the truth no matter what it cost you. I am praying for you.

    • Thank you for seeing the value in my being honest and transparent, even when it costs me something personally and is difficult. Being REAL is very important to me. Thank you for your prayers and encouragement Elizabeth. <3

  6. Read Psalm 91 and let it comfort you in knowing God HAS YOUR BACK! He will turn even this for good…for that is His guarantee to his daughters and sons in Christ! ALL things will work together for good, to those who love Him…that’s you, Sarah. He WILL perform it, for He is true to His Word. Stand strong and trust Him as you are and you will see that He WILL accomplish ALL that concerns you. Ps 138:8. Praying for you.

    • Sherry, thank you for the verses and your encouragement. <3 I will look them up right after I respond to this! He absolutely has my back. One of the most important reasons for this trial is to always and forever be able to encourage others going through trials in the future, to not waver, to stand your ground and be faithful to the Word of God, despite massive oppression. What a huge blessing God will position me in, to the world when this is all over. Praise the Lord! Let His name be forever glorified!!!

      • YES! What we go through is to help others when they too are going through similar situations. To encourage and help direct them in His plan. Where you will be when this is over will be HUGE! Your life will never be the same…your walk with Him will never be the same! No matter what…above all else…STAND!

        • Definitely agree, I will never be the same again. In the past year, I have learned and grown SO incredibly much. Much more than I have in the past 5 years combined. The first, most predominate fruit I see, is more patience and you know what, before this trial started, I prayed for God to teach me patience…funny, huh. 😛 Note to self: NEVER pray for patience AGAIN! ROFL

          • Ha! That’s one prayer I never pray! Instead I ask for courage and strength to withstand all…with Him I can do it. Been through some pretty tough times…He’s always pulled me through. They have taught me to always look to Him FIRST and to trust in all He does. Trust = to lean on, rely on and have confidence in…Him.

          • Yeah, I won’t be praying for patience again anytime soon…it’s hard because I really want to grow in Christ and want to pray prayers like that, but suffering seems to always be the way to get to the other side. :/

  7. Praying for you as always, sweet lady!
    God is good all the time, and praying that you experience His abundant grace and mercy in 2017… (And that He holds you up in the meantime!!)

  8. You are an inspiration to me! Keep standing! I can tell you from my own experiences over the past year that the lowest times of my life have led to the greatest blessings of my life, and a deeper walk with God. Stand on His truth. Lean into Him. With Him, you got this!

    • Melissa, I’m so glad I can be an inspiration to you. I’d love to hear more about how the lowest times in your life have led to the greatest blessings. Feel free to email (Sarah@SarahTitus.com) or comment to let me know. That would be lovely to hear right now! 🙂

  9. Sarah-

    You are truly a Woman of Conviction, A Godly Woman- A PRINCESS WARRIOR!

    I speak life to you!

    Rise up and over the situation – God is a God who hovers before he creates something beautiful – he hovered over the darkness before he created the world… His Spirit hovered over Jesus before calling him out to ministry… this is YOUR time to wait on Him in the darkness of uncertainty as He hovers over you.. Know its a time of brooding, of waiting for the light to shine in all your dark places.

    Use Luke 8: 16 – 17 as a scripture to cling to right now. All that has been done to you or against you in the darkness will be revealed in due time.

    Rejoice in knowing the time will come when God will reveal the truth… and it will set you free!

    Whatever it is, I am standing with you and praying for you and your family. Like Aaron, I’ll help hold you up during this battle. STAY STRONG!!

    • Thank you Moira. I know the story of Aaron and Moses of which you refer to incredibly well! It’s one of my favorites!!! And I totally agree with you about Luke 8:16-17…I suspect that’s why God gives me the blog. 🙂 I am praying God reveal the truth (in His perfect timing). Thank you for standing with me and for your encouragement. I truly appreciate it sooo much!!! <3 <3 <3

  10. Hey Sarah,

    I don’t often comment, but I want you to know that God has used you in my life since the spring of this year. I wrestled with Him about starting a blog of my own. “I am not the girl for the job,” I told Him. But He proved me wrong. And after a month or so, I submitted to His will for me to become a “blogger”, whatever that would come to mean. lol. And so… I now sit at my computer for hours a day with my heart lying open as I try to find a way to let others in through the screen so that they can see it.

    Since I was a young teen, I have wanted to change the world. Just like you have loudly proclaimed. But there’s one thing I know about those world-changers and it’s this – we WILL meet spiritual warfare along the way. We will likely be persecuted, falsely accused, and thrown under the bus. BUT! BUT! BUT! I also know that if we weren’t making a difference, the enemy would not have a target on our backs. Odly, I am in the most difficult place in my life that I have EVER been in, just like you. Each day is a struggle just. to. get. out. of. bed. But I press on with inner joy that only He can give, because I know why I am under such spiritual opposition. We wrestle not against flesh and blood.

    So, thank you for opening your heart for us to see. Thank you for pouring into us.

    When I finally accepted that God would have me start a blog, I’ll be honest, I had NO idea how. I’m the least techy person I know. I was looking at your blog one morning and I just paused in prayer, tears streaming down my face, begging God to give me an answer and just show me where to start. And although I had been all over your blog numerous times, I had never seen the tab you have at the top that says “Start Here”. I opened my eyes from that prayer and LITERALLY the first thing I saw was that tab. It may sound corny or small, but at that moment, I knew He meant it for ME. I had prayed “Lord, where do I even start?” and I opened my eyes to see “Start Here”. And so I did. I read and reread several of your articles on blogging and God has been faithful to show me what to do at each bend in the road. Thank you so much for being obedient to him and freely giving of yourself to help others.

    Now my blog is finally up (but only has two posts. lol.) But Rome wasn’t built in a day and it feels good to be obedient to Him. One baby step at a time, I am building a blog that I know He is using for His glory.

    Thank you for inspiring that in me. Thank you for providing real-life resources that I can use and learn from. And most of all, thank you for allowing Him to use you to bless the lives of others and show His glory.

    -Brittany

    • Wow Brittany, best email I EVER have received to date! Thank you for sharing all that with me. I just LOVE hearing how God faithfully gives us the tools we need to do exactly what He asks us to do. I am not a techy person either, but He has provided what I need every step of the way and look at me go. Whether a little or a lot, seeing your message, makes me know that I AM making a difference, even if doubt creeps in a lot. Thank you! <3 <3 <3

  11. Dear Sarah:
    After reading your post, that happy little audio recording studio in the back of my mind turned on and began playing this: “Show me what you got after you don’t have anything left. C’mon, show me.” ….That was an excerpt from my 1st test in Aikido, and oh, so long ago….I remember being on mat, dizzy, panting for breath, legs burning, I couldn’t stand up. And the sensei said that…then sent 2 black belts in for another round. I thought oh my gosh…I can’t even stand…then I simply thought God help me, just let me go out without crying. I closed my eyes and let God in. I felt a wave of calmness wash over me, as the two ran to me and somehow, something changed in that moment for me, forever. A quiet voice in my ear said: Who said you have to stand to fight?
    So I waited until they were upon me, then I moved. On my knees. And I kept moving, turning, grabbing ankles, then….it was over. They had to carry me off the mat. But…I saw the sensei look at me like he’d never looked at me before. You see, he hadn’t taught fighting on your knees in class.
    So….you are in this world, and it’s beating you until YOU can’t stand. It does that, it is indiscriminate, and nastily biased towards the strongest, which has influenced all us humans to look at the darker side of humanity. It gets us what we want: survival, success, money, victorious feelings, and so on.
    But you know the cost of leaning on that darker side to carry you through life. Resist it. Keep it at bay, fight it, on your knees if you must.
    Sarah, I am in just as bad a situation as you; I said no to something, and I have been paying a price for that. But I am sticking to my choice, as anything else would have been illogical, amoral, and totally lacking in self respect. Maybe you’ll say a prayer for me, too.
    Just show ’em what you got, when you don’t have anything left.

  12. Praying for you Sarah! I love everything you stand for and know the battle! God brings us low only to bring us higher. Keep keeping on!

  13. I’m so sorry you are going through it alone. I know from personal experience how bad it sucks. I am too. It has been a year in full out survival mode for me and my family. Praying for you. There is strength in numbers. Be brave sistah!

    • I’m sorry to hear you are going through a hard time. I’m praying for you and your family right now!!! <3 There is absolutely strength in numbers. 🙂

  14. Oh Sarah! I’m so sorry you are going through this. I do know, however, that you are one of the strongest, truest women I know! Hold on to God He will surely bring you through. Prayers & hugs.

    • Thank you Forest! I appreciate your prayers. Love you! 🙂 You gotta get a guest post on here someday!

      To all who don’t know Forest, she’s an amazing woman I met when I was a baby blogger (think…first 6 months), and if it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t have made it this far! Much love to her and her family!!! <3

  15. I am at work and I just read this and let me tell you I am blown away. First of all, I am sorry you had to deal with this, but I believe God had you go through this for a reason. I just recently found you and I have purchased your ebook on VA because I am at a crossroad in my life as far as what I would like to do. I will take the blogging course because I have a non-profit that caters to teens and their families who are homeless like yourself once was. I truly feel I was meant to be attached to this blog and I will pray for you and you pray for me. God still sits on the throne and never let man change your view! Continue to stand and so will the rest of us!

    • That is so great Denise that you have a non-profit to help others! I imagine myself doing something to help the homeless in the future as well, because I once was homeless, though I’m not sure what yet. Will be praying for you. <3

  16. Hi Sarah,
    I’m just an old man who came across your web site when trying to find ways to make extra income online. I have been following you for a little while now and love your writing and how you’re not afraid to let God guide you. And you’re not afraid to say what’s really going on in your life. I pray and know that everything will be ok and you will come out of this. God bless you.

    Jerry

  17. Hi Sarah. Your posts always seem to come on time for me. This one was the positive epic of them all. It really touched base with me during this time in my life. I am going through some wind storms myself and I refuse to lay up under the covers all day and sulk. That is what Satan wants. You just need to quote verses as James said, Submit yourselves therefore to God, resist the devil and he will FLEE from you.

    As far as people are concerned, sometimes it can be the very people that are closest to you that can fail you, But God said don’t put your trust in them. Remember the verse that says, “some trust in horses and some in chariots, but we will remember the name of the Lord our God.” Psalm 20:7.

    You pretty much hit the nail right on the head and answered your own questions in your post. You got it right and you are on completely the right track. The main thing you said is that you will stand….like Job did in the Bible. Continue to stand my dear sister in Christ and I will too. In the meantime, continue to be an encouragement to others, as you already are through your blog. Follow His standards continually. God will bless you even more. Hang in there and I will be praying for you too. God bless you! Isaiah 41:10.

    • I’m sorry to hear you are going through a difficult trial right now. I’m praying for you first and foremost. I loved your words and I think that I am learning we can’t put our trust in people. Even though, they indeed are believers, we are ALL sinners and let others down continually (myself included). Trusting in the Lord (Proverbs 3:5-6) is the ONLY way to get through times of great sorrow and pain, but the war is already won. We can take comfort in that. My favorite verse: Job 42:2. 🙂

  18. My heart hurts for you, Sarah! I shared a little of my struggle with you recently and I had no idea you were struggling as well. Thank you for being so transparent! I am praying for you daily!

    • It is always my joy to look past what I deal with and help those around me. You are dealing with some mighty fine stuff indeed. I never would want to take that away from you or try to focus on me. I’m still here for you, anytime you need, and I’ve been praying for you. <3 <3 <3

  19. Stay true to your beliefs.
    I’m not going anywhere and still enjoy your posts. If people have decided to leave… That is about them, not you. Stand tall.

    • Hmmm, great insight Carol. Thank you. I pray that whether a little or a lot of traffic, God bring to me those that I can touch their lives, heal their heart, and genuinely help them in some way. 🙂

  20. I will be in prayer for you honey. You have the right attitude. People will always let us down, but not the Lord.
    Your blog and post have always been an inspiration to me. I will always share your things and get other sweet and loving people loving your blog. Let the others fade away. God has plans for good and not for evil.
    God Bless

    • Thank you Tammy. I appreciate your encouragement. I like what you said about let the others fade away. I feel like, I am running a race for the Lord and sometimes the hindrances that keep us down are not things…but people. I know God has great plans for me, and I can’t continue to focus and invest in those around me that stop, thwart, or hinder me from DOING God’s work.

  21. I pray you will stand firm in what you do, because when I went through a trial (literally) I allowed my business to fall apart and then I did lose everything. My kids have suffered because of the mess in my own head. And it is so hard to start over when you have gone down the path of depression. Stay positive! You will overcome!

    • Thank you Kelli. I’m sorry to hear you lost everything. How awful and what a trial you must have gone through. I am continuing to do the blog and all that I’ve been doing over the past year. I know that the blog is God’s will for me and whatever happens in the future in this trial, the blog will be a part of that long term plan of God’s.

  22. Dear Sarah,
    Our God is always at work lovingly in our lives. When I opened your email today tears came to my eyes because I too have lost everything and in 7 days my husband leaves for prison for 4 years. Hearing your strength through God is inspiring. I pray blessings for you my sweet sister in Christ

    • I’m sorry to hear about your husband. That is a really tough trial I can imagine. Perhaps God used me this morning to reach you to encourage you. <3 Now, you're gonna make me cry... 🙂 Praying for you Nan. <3

  23. I am so sorry that you are having a tough time. I, myself, have had a crappy few years. I know what it feels like to feel like you have had everything ripped from you. My husband lost his job, we lost our house, we separated, got back together, separated, got back together (with everyone watching and criticizing, etc.). Then my husband got ill and had to go on permanent disability, I went to work full time, only to lose that job because I couldn’t keep up with the demands. So many years of plenty and now we are in the dry lands. But this morning I saw a post on Facebook that reminded me that “God didn’t bring you this far to drop you in a puddle.” Hmmmm, I have to hang on this tightly today because we are in a downward spiral. Through all the above mentioned stuff and the unmentioned, God has brought us through and He will bring you through as well. He’s got this and now all you need to do is look for the blessings and be thankful and live for the coming blessings. It is time for you to look up to the one who brought the success to you and to learn from it. I know I have had to take a good look at myself and just keep seeking God’s wisdom for direction. Don’t know if this makes sense or if it might encourage you but hold tight sister, God has your back. I will pray for you Sarah Titus.

    • Thank you for your encouragement LaDonna. Yes, it makes sense. 🙂 I saw a quote on Pinterest this morning that was saying how God doesn’t bring us half way through something. What He starts He finishes. It was a great reminder of the verse, Philippians 1:6. I’m praying for your situation. It sounds like an emotional roller coaster ride, and those kind of trials, are often times, the worst! That is my situation to a T unfortunately, so I can definitely relate. Praying. <3

  24. Sarah, I have been through many trials in my life from homelessness, abuse, multiple miscarriages and loss of a job I had for 15 years, so can relate to what you’re going through. When things are at their worst, I see God’s very best. Many years ago He gave me this scripture through another person and then two more times in the midst of trials by two different people. I hadn’t thought about this in years and now he’s brought it back to me to encourage others. Jeremiah 33:1-11. It speaks of devastation and God’s promise of restoration. God is always on the throne and right with us in the midst of it all. Thanks for your encouragement as well.

    • Thank you for encouraging me Anna. <3 I'm sorry to hear about the things you've been through. But I'm glad to see you have a great attitude and have held onto the Lord as well. Yay! :) In your passage, which is great (thank you for sharing), this is the verse I think my trial is exactly about, “Then this city will bring me renown, joy, praise and honor before all nations on earth that hear of all the good things I do for it; and they will be in awe and will tremble at the abundant prosperity and peace I provide for it.”

      After all is said and done, this trial WILL bring Him great glory and honor for what the Lord does for me, a nobody to the world! When everything has unfolded, they will all be in awe. Until then, I know the truth, and I know the story, and I hold it tightly and WAIT until God deems it time (Ecclesiastes 3) for me to share this POWERFUL story.

  25. I’m sorry for your tough time, but you are truly inspirational in your mindset about it.

    I lost my Granny last month and it has been so hard. I feel like the fog is lifting finally and I am grateful that my Granny loved the Lord and we will see each other again one day. I just know she’s up there giving all the loves and cuddles that we never could to the baby we lost.

    You are not alone! God is near to us.

  26. Sarah, stay strong. The blog traffic ebbs and flows, but you have a strong loyal base of readers. I’m encouraged by your desire to stand for truth, even among trials. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

    • Casherie, thank you for encouraging me. Yes, traffic always ebbs and flows…I like the flow part better. 😛 Speaking of which, I tried to visit your blog, but it popped up “phishing link” with my anti-virus software and wouldn’t let me visit you. Just thought I’d let you know.

  27. Through God, all things are possible. I hold this statement true and close to my heart. Never give up and keep on pushing through. God is there holding you up, and it’s up to you to keep your feet moving forward. I hope this passes quickly for you, and believe you will come out stronger.

  28. Lord I pray for protection for Sarah. Father you know this situation, you are with her and you go ahead of her. I pray for your peace and mercy to cover Sarah. Father she is your child and you have built this platform for a reason for her and I believe she will continue and be doubly blessed. As Job was restored and then some, Father, I ask also for blessings for Sarah and her family. Thank you for your loving kindness Lord and thank you for this wonderful woman of God pouring herself out to encourage your people.

    Thank you Sarah for all you do and I will continue to pray for you and your family. Keep up this great work you have been blessed with a platform and you will reach so many.
    Love, Robin

    • Robin, I have no words. That made me cry. Thank you. <3 <3 <3 I see the value in the platform as well and I know God will use it someday for His purposes. I hold onto that until it comes to pass.

  29. HI Sarah. I have never posted but wanted to thank you for your post. It is so honest and raw and encouraging! You have encouraged me to make changes. Fear has held me back but I have made a decision and that is my first step. I send you prayer and know God will get you through this difficult time and you will have grown and gotten stronger after it passes.

  30. Thank you for your post today! I am sorry to hear you are going through such a hard time. I read your blog all the time and enjoy it very much. You are still inspiring people! I, too, have had a hard a terrible year and really don’t see an end. My husband and I were both unemployed last January. I was able to find something in June and he is doing Uber part-time. We have three little ones and daycare to pay for, only one good car, and a mound of debt. I could go on, but I try to stop myself and focus on the positive. I try very hard to continue in prayer but it is hard, very hard. My children are healthy and happy, we still have our house and our health as well. I will try to keep my head up and continue to STAND with you. God bless you!

    • Alison, I’m praying for you. <3 Have you tried starting a prayer journal? I started one several years back with a portion of the page for thankful prayers and a portion for prayers. It helped me not only see more things to be thankful for (over time), but it made me see that God answers all our prayers (if we are believers). Here’s a post I wrote about my journey. 🙂

  31. Sweetie

    Prayers for you in your situation. Remember, we have an enemy and it is not God. The devil is the one who comes to steal, kill, and destroy. Jesus came that we might have life!

    Now, I am not saying we don’t have trials and tests, cause we do! Just saying you are an overcomer. You are a daughter of the king.

    • Satan is definitely trying to thwart God’s plans for my life, but he can only do that which God allows him to. I hold onto the fact that though things may look hopeless, God’s already won the battle. 🙂 I passed the test; I did not sin against God under extreme pressure; for that, I am incredibly thankful for the power to do so. All glory goes to God. Thank you for your encouragement. <3

  32. When I opened my email and read yours, it was exactly what I needed. You see, I am disabled and fighting cancer. Three weeks ago my husband left. Leaving me and our two kids with no income, nothing to pay the bills. I struggle daily to keep God at the forefront, but I try my best. I am encouraged by you and your posts. Much love and blessings to you.

    • Angela, I’m so sorry to hear the things you are going through right now. For 3 years, I had a cancer scare myself. The doctors all said I had the beginning of cancer. It ended up, the particular cancer that I was in development of, I used essential oils to clear up. Right before the doctors all said that I was developing cancer, my ex-husband (of 14 years) abandoned us. So, your story definitely hits home. You’re not alone. Being far away from me, there’s not a lot I can do, but just know that I’m praying for you. Here’s a post that might be really helpful to you right now (not sure of your rent, but perhaps there’s something you could glean from it- I was homeless after he left). I started picking up free things on Craigslist and reselling them. Here’s a post about that too.

  33. Sarah!!!! I am praying for you and crying out to our Father for you!!! I just LOVE your love for Him! I know that you know that all our battles aren’t with ‘flesh and blood, but with principalities and powers…’ Ephesians 6, and so I just hope to encourage you with that. I’ll be battling in prayer for you!!!!! I just can’t wait to meet you someday! Big Hugs!!!!

    • Aww, thank you Joli. Yes, it’s definitely a spiritual battle going on. I’ve seen the effects of it in this trial, but I hold firm to what I know in the Bible and to my convictions before the Lord. I only pray that my story can one day truly strengthen and glorify His name and kingdom further. {{hugs}}

  34. Ugh, yes, thank you. I’m feeling like I’m at the lowest point in my life right now as well (health, wealth, love). I am going home for Xmas on Thursday and I’m feeling like a poor failure who said she’d start a blog last year this time and feel like I’ve done nothing and stand for nothing (although I know that’s not true). I’m feeling like I can do so much more and be so much more. I appreciate this reminder.

    • Mackenzie, that is tough. Chin up…2017 is right around the corner….a time to completely reinvent yourself and start over!!! What are your top 3 goals you’d like to accomplish in 2017? Focus on that instead of the past, ‘cuz 2016 will all be in the past soon! 🙂

  35. I am so sorry to read about the trials you are going through right now. My heart aches for you. I love your blog and love the messages in your posts.
    I have stumbled upon a quote that resonates deep within me. Maybe it will give you just a little strength.
    Fate says to the Warrior, “The storm is too great. You will not survive.”
    The Warrior whispers back, “I am the storm.”
    Be strong in your storm. You are a Warrior.

  36. I hate that you’re going through this situation; you seem like a sweetheart and I know that this too shall pass! Please be encouraged, there are many of us praying for you and your lovely family, including myself. Keep keeping on,
    Love you like a sister

    • Awww, thank you. 🙂 I’m greatly encouraged to see how many women are praying for me right now. I’m so humbled and honored. God is good…ALL the time. <3

  37. I did pray for you Sarah. I’m not a Mum but I’m always inspired by your posts; your courage and tenacity is greatly admired.

    Remember, God cares; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Let Isaiah 43:1-3 comfort you during this time.

    You are an overcomer.

    • Wow, Elisha…I have to tell you this! I just prayed for something super specific about 5-10 mins ago, and you just responded with the answer I literally just prayed for!!!!!!!! God’s power is definitely there and just worked through YOU. Thank you for being a part of that! <3 <3 <3

  38. Hi Sarah. I am so sorry to hear about what’s going on in your life. I’m in a deep depression right now and did need to hear this. You give me hope that I can continue to be a stay at home mom regardless of what my situation seems right now. Thank you for sharing and for being real. I would love to be your friend.

    • Thank you Gina. I’m sorry to hear about your being in deep depression. Finances can definitely take a toll on us. Keep your eyes on Jesus; focus on Him. Sometimes, we just have to let everything go and place it all in His hands. A few days ago, I took all my hurts and pain, everything in this trial and I submitted it all to Christ. I told Him that whatever the outcome will be, I will be joyful and happy, knowing that I’m saved. That alone is cause for joy.

      I’d encourage you to look up and start watching Ray Vanderlaan on YouTube (here’s a good one I just watched 2 days ago). I have all his DVD’s (14 volumes) and they are AH-mazing (life changing stuff!!!). The video titled, Fire on the Mountain would be great for your situation. There are 6 episodes on it.

  39. Thank-you, Sarah, for sharing so vulnerably, as well as offering to pray for our needs. I pray that God will continue to prosper you and take care of your needs (and those of your family), as you stand firm in him. May you feel the peace of the Holy Spirit as you celebrate this Christmas. He’s got your back and your reputation is safe with him!

    • Thank you for your encouragement. <3 I keep telling myself that same thing...my reputation, my character, it all belongs to the Lord. I know the truth.

  40. Disclaimer: I do not intend my comments to be negative in any way but fear they may be construed that way.
    The minute I opened the first email from you that mentioned your change in track for the blog (i.e. God references) I knew you would alienate a large section of your audience and I felt that it could have been a financial error on your part. In fact I almost unsubscribed myself but despite your new direction, I still enjoy reading your posts and this blog has such a vast number of older posts that will stand the test of time as relevant.
    Having stuck with you despite being a non-believer, I can tell you that you made the right decision for YOU and those that stopped reading your blog were either non-believers too or were only interested in the money-saving and making tips you provided before the change.
    I too feel deeply for your pain and am glad you gain strength from believing in your God. The support in the comments has been tremendous and should be nothing but inspirational to you, although so many others seem to be going through a lot of pain too.
    We ALL have our crosses to bear and most of us suffer our pain in silence. YOU ARE NEVER ALONE. Even when those physically close to you are not within arms reach, you have a huge online audience you can count on to empathize and lift you up.
    Hang on in there. You will survive this. You will be stronger for it.

    • Dee, I don’t read anything you said as negative. You’re speaking from your heart. You can’t be faulted for that. You’re being honest. I can’t fault you for that either. The truth is still the truth, even when it’s not palatable, and I’m thankful you feel comfortable enough to voice your thoughts. Thank you for that. 🙂 I’m sorry if that email came off as a change in track. It’s not in the least. I’ve had God on this site since before it went live to the world. God is a big part of my life and I can’t take Him off my site. I’d rather make $1/month WITH Him, than a million dollars a month WITHOUT Him on it. Regarding the money posts, they are still coming. Just not all the time as they used to. 🙂 I have lots of different interests and in order to keep myself motivated to invest in the blog long term, I have to post on a variety of things. Right now, I’m building my authority in recipes (because they are fun for me- I love photography), so there are more than usual. Not sure if others are like that too or it’s just me. 🙂 You mention most people suffer pain in silence. You’re exactly right and this is something I want to change in the future, in my corner of the world anyway. I want us ALL to be open and share what we are going through. SarahTitus.com is a place where women can feel free to be themselves, without judgement, get how they feel out, and know that someone IS listening and cares. Like you said, we’re not alone. Thank you again for your encouragement and your boldness to speak. I value that! <3 Comment anytime Dee!

  41. He is taking away because He is making room for something else. Give Him margin to work. For the past two years I keep being led back to your blog. The Lord has plans for me here. I’m waiting to see what He is going to do. Thanks for being so vulnerable and real.

    • Well what do ya know… 🙂 That lines up exactly with a conviction I’ve been having and makes PERFECT sense, but until you said it, I didn’t get it. He keeps convicting me of shaking off all distractions and encumbrances like a runner running a race. I kept thinking to myself, “Okay, I’m running…I’m RUNNING Lord.” This entire year, He’s been cutting my time back drastically in various projects. It all makes sense now! He’s making room for something else! Thank you for sharing Elizabeth. <3

  42. Sarah, I am so sorry you are going through this. The encouragement I receive from reading your blog means so much to me. Your sincerity and honesty are a breath of fresh air in a world where we are bombarded by so many ungodly things. Please know that I am praying for you and stand with you. We must stand for the truth even when it is hard. As you know, God’s word tells us we will face trials. This is so difficult but take heart my sister, you are not alone. You are being refined. 1 Peter 1:6-7 “In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith – of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire – may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.”
    Please be encouraged Sarah. You are loved! By your readers and most of all, by the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

    • That is a GREAT verse Donna. Thank you for sharing!!! <3 I like the part where it talks about a trial proving our faith. I think this is so true. Right now, I am proving, not just by empty words but by ACTION, that I AM indeed a true believer, and if this is something I have to go through in order to prove that to the world, I can be thankful. It also, brings me sorrow in knowing that the person that accuses me is NOT proving their faith as a Christian at the moment! Ultimately, it's between them and God, but I am disappointed greatly in their actions. For they lie about me, in order to stay out of trouble themselves, but they cannot lie forever. The truth will eventually come out...nothing can be hidden (Luke 8:17).

      Thank you for reminding me that I am loved, both by you guys and God. It feels kinda "funny." I think of the blog as a way to serve you guys, but (tears) look at how many comments there are on this post, and it makes me realize that you guys serve me as well. I'm overwhelmed by your support. It means the world to me, especially right now when I do FEEL abandoned by everyone. For so long, I thought the problem in my life was me. I'm just this stupid idiot no one can love, but I realize that it's NOT me. It's my fire and passion for the Lord that make people run away. They don't get me, but I love the Lord with all my heart and even in Biblical churches, such as the one I go to, all I see is lukewarm apathy everywhere! It makes me SICK! Why even be a Christian if we’re going to live in apathy???? God calls us for SO. MUCH. MORE! I wanna light a fire under their bums! Like, come on…let’s run the race; let’s not doddle…people everywhere are dying, we can do something about it. If we’d only stop focusing on our own problems and get out there and help. Because in helping others through THEIR problems, OUR problems seem so small in comparison. 🙂 The world is suffering; the world needs hero’s to stand with them in their trials. And we can ALL be hero’s to SOMEbody!!!

  43. Dear Sarah – I have been blessed and encouraged by your emails and blog, although I am a married childless career woman who will soon be retiring and so I cherish your posts on saving money and making some income while staying home. Believe me when I say that you have blessed many women besides mothers of young children.

    I will pray for your deliverance from the evil that surrounds you. I will pray that God’s truth will be known, and that all who have turned against His word will be convicted and repent and make amends to the true believers. So sorry for the pain and loneliness and misery you are experiencing. I have been falsely accused before, and had friends and family turn on me after believing my accuser, and it is a pain like no other. Although your trials may go on for some time, God will give you the strength to endure, and in time His spirit will fill you with hope and comfort. Please keep writing and posting as I read all of your emails and postings and as long as you are writing, I will know you are doing okay.

    Sending love and blessings your way. His will be done.

    • Thank you Elizabeth {{hugs}}. That is a WONDERFUL prayer! I pray that as well with you!!! I’m sorry that you know that kind of pain. It runs very deep, indeed. I think about Paul and how his friends believed lies about him. You could sense him wanting to shake them and say, “But you KNOW me. You KNOW I wouldn’t do this. Have I not loved you to the depths of any human love?!”

      As for writing, it is a part of God’s future plan for me, so I don’t plan on stopping anytime soon. Thank you for sharing that you enjoy my writing. It means so much to me! <3

  44. Hi Sarah, I have written a few times before! I’m so sorry for the pain that people cause, but I totally agree with everything you said about standing firm, as I am exactly the same as you. I am going through some trials right now and I may lose everything soon, except for my child, and he is the most important thing in my life, besides my Lord and Saviour! I may be losing my home, due to my husbands’ alcoholism, abuse, affairs, etc! I have been home with my 13 year old son, who is having stomach issues, and anxiety and depression. I still believe that I’m suppose to learn lessons from all this and God will decide what’s going to happen next, and whatever it is, I will accept! I will pray for you and your family! Stand Firm Sarah! I’m proud of you! It’s nice to know someone else feels like I do! I think if we knew each other we would get along well! Please take care of yourself! Have a very Merry Christmas, (it’s about our Lord in this house) and keep writing, I look forward to it! Sincerely Gale Lord from New Hampshire

    • Yep, I remember your name! 🙂 I’m sorry to hear you are going through some very heavy trials. I’ve dealt with some of those issues myself and know it is heart-wrenching. Thankfully, your son is older and can help (in time). My son is 8 and he is a Christian since he was 5, believe it or not! A miraculous story (he’s wanted to be a pastor since he was 3!!!) Everything for him is about the Bible. If I say something that doesn’t sound right to him, he looks it up in the Bible without telling me and then comes to me if he can’t find the answer or feels I’m wrong! 🙂 The time that you invest in your son is not wasted even if only one parent is a good example (as in my case as well). I’ll pray for him right now; what is his first name? I’ve dealt with depression myself during seasons of my life and know how difficult it is.

      • Hi Sarah, Thank you for asking his name, it’s Liam. He is also Christian and was not breathing when he was born! But God intervened and he came out of it! Funny story, when he was very little (talking age) we showed him a picture and asked him if he knew who that was and he got this look on his face and “yes, that’s the man that was holding me and said I have to go back to see mommy and daddy, and he was All shining”! And at that point I had to sit down. He’s a great kid, kind, loving, even now at almost 14, he’s thoughtful and sweet and he does the right thing! I’m lucky to have such a wonderful boy! And he Loves his Lord and his Saviour!
        Please Have a very Merry Christmas! I will pray for you and your family also and I will keep in touch! May God Bless You! Love, Gale Lord

  45. Sarah! My heart hurt for you when I read this. Anger by religious persection and abandonment and friends not looking at the real you and KNOWING You. Sad for the tears and the loneliness. We all share so many experiences. And continue to love and grow in God’s love for each other. Stay strong

    • Carolyn, life is a painful journey, but it’s great to know that we all share very similar experiences. In that way, we can hold each other up, continue to love and grow in God’s love for each other, just like you said. I do feel that they should know me better than to believe a lie about me, but there’s nothing I can do to change anybody’s mind. I’ve exhausted my efforts, they refuse to listen. So, it’s time to stop “throwing pearls to swine,” shake the dust off my feet (Matthew 10:14), and move on. Not an easy transition, but I have faith in God that He will see me through. Thank you for your support. I appreciate it. <3

  46. I will definitely be praying for you! Be encouraged; this is a test that you will pass if you stand on the word (which is the truth, it will set you free). Remember the one who has AUTHORITY OVER ALL! You will overcome this. I believe because MY GOD AND YOUR GOD IS NOT A LIAR! God Bless you & family and your ministry. 🙂

    • Thank you Cilla for your kind words and encouragement. <3 I believe He will see me through, absolutely! He's been faithful to me this entire year, through the roller coaster ride. He will not let me fall now. In my mind, it's over. I walk away; there's nothing more I can do. They will not listen.

  47. Wow, Sarah, I had no idea what you have been facing. I hope your telling your story will bring you comfort in knowing that you will have prayers being sent for you, and love being sent your way. I have thought to myself how blessed you were (and maybe was a little jealous) but you have been through so much. God will return everything to you, as He has in the past. He must love you very much to allow you to go through these “Job-like” experiences. I am so sorry your church has turned against you. It happened to me too, many years ago, when I was judged to be the cause of my daughter’s death because I would not remarry her father. At the very time I needed their comfort, they turned their backs on me in judgment. I did not react well, and bitterness kept me from my relationship with God for many years. I hope to be joining you in the blogging world someday. I too am going through severe loss of my financial security (haha…being a millionaire and losing it all. I have learned my trust is not in my bank account!) We will be victorious. You are right. God is on our side. This is temporary. This entire world is temporary. Bless you.

    • So many great facets to your comment Margaret, and you obviously know me very well (my past), which comforts me in a way that cannot be explained. The #1 thing I would say is to never be jealous of anyone, because although their lives may LOOK LIKE they have it all together, those that are the most successful, generally struggle the most. I heard a saying once that helps me personally. Something like, don’t be jealous of where others are, you have no idea what it took to get them there! Do you REALLY wanna go through what they went through to get to where they are now? That saying cut me so deep and it’s something I carry with me at all times when I start to feel jealous of others (we all feel jealous from time to time).

      I’m sorry to hear about your daughter’s death and the struggles that you went through and are dealing with now. I feel exactly the same. When I need my friends here the most, that’s when they believe lies about me. BUT, yesterday I was convicted that it’s actually a blessing. Trials shake the tree, so to speak. Through a trial, you find out who your REAL friends are and who aren’t. Even though my friend pool is very limited now, those that ARE still there, it makes them shine even brighter. It makes you appreciate them even more! Praying for you and your financial situation. <3

  48. So sorry you are going through a difficult time Sarah, but I’m sure you’ll walk out on the other side, stronger and wiser. You’ve done so much for others, I don’t know if you truly realize it. Sending you and your family much love and blessings for Christmas!

  49. I am so sorry to hear you are going through such a rough time! Thank you for always being so honest and transparent when you write. Continue to press on to and hold tight to the One that holds you. You are an encouragement to us women of faith and you definitely will overcome. Sending you lots hugs and prayers!

  50. Sarah, hi, I hope I can offer you a different perspective on your situation that will bring comfort to you today. I so admire your strong faith and courage, but there are a few scriptures that can add purpose to your trials as well.

    James 1:13 “When under trial let no one say: ” I am being tried by God.” For with evil things God cannot be tried, nor does he himself try anyone.”

    Also, you referred to Job. Please read the 1st chapter of Job carefully. Who caused the problems? God allowed it (FOR A REASON!) but Satan was behind the persecution. He accused God of putting up a hedge around Job, so that he would not have any problems and by giving him everything it was like bribing him. He claimed that no one would stay loyal to God if they were tried. But Job did, so did Jesus when Satan tempted him. (Matt. chapter 4). In the garden of Eden, Satan told Eve that if she ate from the fruit of the tree of knowledge that her “eyes would be opened” and she would be like God, know everything He knows and wouldn’t need Him telling her what to do. (Gen. chapter 3) That is the issue today (does mankind need divine rulership and does God have the right to require obedience from us?) and is why God allows us to be tested although He, himself does not test us.

    I know you are familiar with the Bible and wouldn’t want to presume you need my help. But, I could hear the pain in your writing today and hope I have offered something for your comfort and encouragement.

    I love Bible based discussion and would welcome your comments, questions, insights. Have a better day……Agape, Teri

    • Teri, great point. Just in case anything I’ve said comes off like God is doing this specifically to me, that is not the case. However, like you said, God does allow us to be tested, refined, and tried for our own good and His glory. He may cause (by allowing) a situation to happen, but never the sin. He is blameless, pure, and holy. Thank you for clearing that up so perfectly. 🙂

  51. Oh sweet Sarah, I am so sorry to hear about the trials you are enduring. You have been such an encouragement to me and I am sure….that your determination to depend on our Heavenly Father for His wisdom, strength and forgiveness will cause you to come out the other side, to be an even greater encourager in the lives of women!!! I wish I could give you a physical hug!
    Instead I’ll ask God to do that for me!
    I firmly believe that God delights in bringing about redemption to His children who stand for righteousness and stand in faith. No, it’s not easy! You know all this, but please know that I for one can’t wait to hear how God has brought about redemption in your life.
    I was in such a similar situation four years ago. I also listened to a CD of Mandisa…in fact, I wore it out. And when I think of Paul and Silas in jail…they sang! Which I’ve heard many different slants on that. But I believe they sang to God because they were in a terrible desperate position. They couldn’t sleep, get comfortable and in fear of their very life. The only thing that was their assurance of a better position was GOD and so they passed the time singing to Him.
    Thank you for sharing your heart, because I believe God wants us to, so that others can be used to encourage us, to pray with us, and to stand with us!
    I will pray for you here in Virginia and thank you for your courage to stand strong and to let us know. Hugs!

    • Thank you Jackie {{hugs}}. I think about that with Paul and Silas too. That story, in of itself is AH-mazing and it’s one I’ve clung to several times in this. Here’s why. God has wanted me to keep silent, just as He wanted Paul and Silas to do, but there came a day when Paul and Silas WERE able to speak and when they did, what did they say? We are Romans! What you have done to us is WRONG. Though they endured it and could have spoken up at any time, they chose (because God convicted them to do so) NOT to speak until AFTER they were mistreated and wronged and had endured imprisonment. My situation is the same. I have endured the last year with patience, suffering unjustly, still knowing the truth. God has wanted me to be silent, until now. Now, I stand up and say the truth. I endured mal-treatment because my Lord asked me to, for a purpose! For His purpose, but there will come a day, where I will stand and all will know of my innocence!

  52. Hi Sarah!
    I want to watch my words because I feel like I know you and literally feel your pain because you are so open and something about you pulls at me. Your church sounds like they are behaving like a cult or a gang. I don’t say those words lightly because I know they hold weight. But they can’t force you to stay! Or to sin! So that’s why I feel they are operating really like something else….
    I’m praying for you and the release of these chains on your life!
    Gosh this really breaks my heart! In an odd way, even this gives me hope because you have risen from ashes and it proves that different trials will keep happening and that you can even be so strong in this moment inspires the hearts that are needing it. It sounds like there are also some wonderful words and prayers in the comments and I pray this also comforts you.
    Again, please don’t be offended by the words I’ve used in regards to how your church is acting with you. But people leave churches all the time and for them to not only give you a hard time like it’s impossible but also tell you you can’t go to any other Bible teaching churches…. That is out of line! I don’t know your battle but I can feel your heart. This battle is God’s and you do it with such strength! God bless you girlie! I pray God wraps his arms around you

    • Danielle, thank you for feeling comfortable enough to share how you feel, and what you may see, even though it’s extremely difficult for you. I’d rather someone tell me the truth and hurt me, than comfort me with a lie. The people in my life that tell me the truth, are the ones I love forever. 🙂 Because it is rare. Thank you for being one of those people. <3 With that said, the church is not a cult. It is a Biblical and godly church. I've been attending about 5-6 years now. However, as a human being, we are ALL sinners, and there will always be sin in every church, even great ones, because we are human. I'd also want to say that this is the first time I've ever been in church discipline, so I have no idea if it's common or just according to this particular church, that a member is not allowed to revoke membership while in church discipline. Either way, it doesn't matter. Eventually, whatever happens WILL be revoked. Whatever they say about me to anyone (whether in private or in public) eventually will have to taken back and my good name restored, because as sure as I am there is a God in Heaven, I am SURE that the truth will eventually come out. And although I do have proof to clear my name, it is not mine to share (like Paul and Silas). I seek to live in unity, walking humbly with my God, letting HIM fight my battles for me. This is His purpose for me. Thank you again, for loving me ENOUGH TO TELL ME THE TRUTH! {{hugs}}

      • (Hugs) no, I know you aren’t in a cult, I was saying that’s what they are acting like 🙁 Yes as we are all human we all sin and fall short of the glory of God, but he is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us of all unrighteousness! And they have no power or authority to say YOU can’t go to another Bible-based church and in fact should encourage you to go to one if you can’t attend that one any longer! It hurts me the ways the church has so much power to turn people against church and God with things they do out of Gods will. If you weren’t as strong a person, it would have turned you away all together. It had turned people’s hearts because the church is supposed to represent God! I speak like this because I have seen some things, as you can tell. Thank God for him showing me himself, so that I didn’t think a church or person represented all of it. I pray you get the support you need and that you are blessed far beyond you could ask or imagine! Be blessed and high and lifted up!

        The truth is I speak like this as my father was a pastor… but wasn’t around for me. One of six kids and the world didn’t know the real him… And I’ve had to pray to God to heal my heart of it all. He passed away and I never will get an apology and I have to trust God and his plan.
        Love you sis!

        • Gosh Danielle, I’m sorry to hear about your father. I don’t personally have a father. He left when my mom told him she was pregnant with me. But I do know that God is father to the fatherless. And I love that about Him. In the Bible, one of His names is, “Abba.” Translated, it literally means daddy. The closeness of a dad. It’s amazing to me how someone so powerful, so BIG, can also be a PERSONAL father to us. 🙂 Thank you for clearing everything up. I appreciate that, and I LOVE how bold you are. It’s very encouraging. <3 <3 <3

  53. Sarah,
    I have only been with you for a short time, but want you to know that you are making a difference out there, encouraging us women to be and be great! This is the first year that I have worked 100% for myself (as a bookkeeper for my own company). I just had a baby at 43 and it has been a crazy year.
    I know how you feel, those moments when you have left all you know and are free falling until God lands you at your next adventure. Trust Him, he knows where we need to be. I know what it’s like when the church turns on you and I am praying that you land softly and gently right where He places you. Xoxo

    • Thank you for your encouragement Bonnie. I truly treasure it. <3 It has definitely been a holding pattern in my life for the past year, but I feel good now. At this moment, I'm moving on. Saying goodbye to the pain of the past. I know that I have given 5,000% and there's absolutely nothing more I can do in the situation at all. I can't make anyone listen to me, but I can't stay and be abused either. My kids are watching!!! Wherever the Lord takes me next, will be amazing, I can feel it in my gut, and I know that I am on the right path with Him, following His will for my life. That's really all I can do. So many others have left our church in the recent years, yet leadership remains hard-hearted to listen to it's people. My biggest prayer is that God humble them. It's not just me.

  54. I have been going on unbelievable trials for three years now, and though I try to keep my faith, and pray so much, it just seems to get worse. I think and say always, “This too shall pass”, but it doesn’t. I have lost everything, like you, I have been at the top, had everything, and now, lost everything. I am not even the shadow of the woman I was, I have been so humiliated by my own parents, brother, family, friends, that my self esteem is on the floor. Thanks for letting me write this, I have been wanting to have a space to let everything out, because there are days I just want to die, and have begged God for that, but now my daughter is extremely sick and I have to stand beside her. In this, I have seen God’s mercy, because she has leukemia, but we are finishing our first year of treatment and doing great. In January we will enter what is called “maintenance”, and hopefully cancer is gone. I am trying to be obedient of God and tried to maintain a relationship with my parents, but it’s so hard. In this past, terrible year, none of them have even asked if my daughter is okay, if we need anything, and still, I have tried, but it’s so hard to forgive, and mostly, when they keep doing harm.

    • I’m so sorry to hear your situation. I know how hard it is to deal with everything you’re going through. I had a cancer scare for 3 years (docs said I had it). And I can completely understand parental drama. It’s been said of me by one of my friends that between my family and my ex-husband, it’s a wonder I’ve even cognitive and in a right frame of mind because of everything I’ve had to deal with in my life, so I completely get it.

      I’d highly encourage you to keep a prayer journal. Here’s how I do mine. Thankful prayers on top, prayer requests on the bottom. After a while, you can see how your prayers are being answered one by one and it’s an encouragement and it forces us to find things to be thankful about in the midst of such horrible suffering.

      I can’t say that I’ve never asked God to take me, like you have. I’ve had a really rough life. But I can say with confidence that this isn’t your life. Whatever all the things you are dealing with NOW, they are not your life permanently. You WILL get through it, even if it doesn’t feel like it. Day by day, it’ll get easily. Why? Because you can’t get any further DOWN than you already are…it HAS TO go up…the laws of motion tell us that. 🙂 I’m praying for you right now and if you ever need a listening ear, please feel free to email me privately {{hugs}}.

  55. Hi Sarah,

    I just stumbled across this post after a while of not reading my favorite blogs. You and a handful of other bloggers inspired me to start my own blog. Yours really helped me: it encouraged me to step out and try without fear.

    Yes, sometimes when we have it going really well, the big trials come in. I am SO proud of you for leaning on the Lord on this, realizing that He is sovereign. Keep close to Him: study His Word and sing His praises. Things will work out for His glory and your good. Praying for you, Sarah. Thank you for all you do. Keep up the spectacular work. Merry, Merry Christmas.

    • Christiana, I’m so glad that you stepped out in faith and started a blog. How amazing is that?! Congratulations! 🙂 I’m so amazed because lately I’ve been feeling like what difference do I really make to the world, and so many of you are writing in to tell me and it makes me cry. I’m so appreciative that God is SHOWING ME that I AM making a difference in the lives of many. Each and every woman is so dear to me. Thank you so much for letting me know. <3 <3 <3 I wish you all the best in your new endeavor. 🙂

  56. Hi Sarah,

    I am so sorry to hear you are going through a rough time. BUT… how amazing that you are standing in your faith despite what you are facing!

    I had my year in 2014. I lost everything. I won’t go into details, but I just wanted to tell you it ended up being the BEST thing that EVER happened to me!! God took out the trash for me… removed the users, liars, and cheaters from my life and gave me a clean slate. I put my faith in Him 100% and promised to go wherever he led me.

    I kept that promise and now I feel JOY and HAPPINESS for the first time in over 10 years!! I lost it all but in return I was led to everything I needed… including the man of my dreams.

    God is good and I KNOW He is working miracles for you right now. Keep that faith!

    I will keep you in my prayers.

    Love,
    Jane

    • Thank you for your encouragement Jane. 🙂 I know in my heart that this will end up being the best thing that ever happened to me too. I feel like I’m GLAD it happened. Although painful at the time, I wouldn’t take any of it back! Why? Because I have learned SOOOOO much. This year I have grown so much more than the last 7 years of my Christian walk combined. I know that God is preparing me for {{BIG}} things. I’m a completely different person now, than I was a year ago. I’m softer, kinder, sweeter, more emotional, more patient, stronger, have more faith and trust in God, and so many other things. I learned to let go of the bitterness and pain of my past (with my ex-husband, being homeless, etc.) Above all, I learned what God’s love is, and I think that’s the most important thing God wants any of us to learn. Before this year, I honestly had no clue what love truly was. I thought I did, but…I didn’t. In reality, it doesn’t MATTER what happens now. I take away a gift so big, so monumental that no one can ever take it away from me!!!!

  57. Saying a prayer for you gorgeous! Thank you for being such an inspiration and testament of faith!
    I’ve spent most of my year on my knees as well. One of the best books (aside from the Bible) that I read this year was Tim Tebow’s new book, Shaken. I was on the ground, broken in pieces – read this book and it gave me the strength to stand again – unshaken. You are so amazing. Thank you for being true to yourself, thank you for being real, and thank you for being the beautiful person that God created you to be!

    • Thank you for your prayers Jasmyne. 🙂 I’ve heard of that book, but haven’t read it. I’ll have to check it out. 🙂 So glad you are doing better now!

  58. Hi Sarah,

    It has taken me a couple of days to digest your article on losing everything. I can relate. It has been a painful journey to climb out of the abyss of loss but I have. Since 2004, God has allowed me to experience much loss and yet, within one year I gained double.
    Your blog resonates with me because God has been telling me to write since (at least) 2011, when I was laid off from corporate America. I have been procrastinating and fearful about my writing and how to present the content. I look forward to reading more excerpts.

    • I’d encourage you to join the new (and free) 7-day course, How to Easily Start a Blog with No Fear. If you don’t want your writing to be on the blogging platform, that is totally okay, but the information about fears are the sections that you can pay attention to as they will dispel many common fears potential writers and bloggers have. I’d encourage you to sign up. You can do so here, if you haven’t already. <3

  59. I will keep you in my prayers.

    I also thought you might be interested to know that your emails are one of the only ones that I subscribe to that usually bring value. Your candidness with your faith and your vulnerability are unique and breath of fresh air.

  60. Sending prayers that God will surround you with His love and strength to see you through this tough time in your life. Keep the faith…you got this!

  61. Sarah,

    Oh boy have I been here …more than once. And your words echo the same exact things I would later say about my time in this season as well. Not that I would go asking for that again, I still wouldn’t change it because of the way God changed me through it all and showed me exactly who He really is. He proved Himself in ways to me through it all that removed all doubt and that no one can ever take away from me. I too was lied about, time and again -and almost everyone either believed it all or believed I was doing something to bring it on myself (family, close friends, people who’ve known me my whole life and should’ve known me better). All except one good, steadfast, beautiful friend and Jesus, I was very alone for a long time slandered and beat down in so many ways. I held onto God as well. The pain is very real and it certainly lasts for awhile but His peace through it all surely does pass all understanding. I am praying for you and your children. You will come through this fire and not even smell of the smoke. I am believing this for you. God bless.

    • I loved this comment so much…my #1 favorite. Everything you said is absolutely true, and I agree, when I come through it, I won’t even smell of the smoke from the fire. While I may not know details of what is about to happen, through convictions of the Bible, I know ENOUGH to know that EVERYONE is going to be BLOWN AWAY by God’s POWER! 🙂 YAY! I don’t really care what they say. I know where I’m going and like a runner, it’s better to cut off all entanglements that would try to stop me or tell me I’m not good enough to proclaim the message of Christ to the masses (they basically said I’m not good enough to be a public speaker and would not stand behind me in that endeavor). I’m not good enough to be a public speaker, they are right! But the God who is inside of me, IS!!! Yes, I’m super shy. I have no public speaking skills, but neither did Moses! 🙂 God will do with me what He wants and I am willing to be used by Him. Doesn’t matter what anyone else says, God says yes. He’s the final authority on the matter. 🙂

  62. Hi Sarah, Thanks again for another great article! You are doing the right thing! Stand strong for God, everything will be ok in the end ! Let no one make you feel like you are doing wrong! You are right with the Lord, that’s exactly where you should be! I’m with you on that! I pray for you! Keep it up! You know what’s right! Let them do whatever they want! Sincerely, Gale from NH

    • Thank you for your prayers Gale. I appreciate them. 🙂 God wants me to just step back and let it all happen, not fight, just let it all go and let Him fight for me and my honor/integrity/character. Wowzer, that’s difficult!

  63. I truly believe everyone comes into your life for a reason good or bad. The good reason to support you and continue to lead you on the right path and the wrong people to stay away from and learn from your mistakes and your experiences with them … And in this instance, I met you for a good reason because we both are going through trial and tribulations and I can relate to you bc I felt like I lost everything in June 2012 and its been 4 1/2 years and I still haven’t gotten it back as yet and I’m waiting until God is ready to give it back to me. and i guess my life lesson to learn in this trial is patience, one of the hardest life lessons! lol. I tried to keep strong but I became severely depressed, so my husband convinced me to get involved in a dream/hobby so I’m a merchandiser and I have my own fashion jewelry online boutique. I was also interested in blogging but didn’t know where to start. I recently found you and realized that you were heavily into Christ (plus in my books) and we can relate so I signed up immediately for your newsletter. I felt connected with you. After reading your story today, it brought tears to my eyes, I’ll definitely keep you in my prayers. I’m sorry that you have to go through this ordeal. You have certainly inspired me and many other women. Keep your head held up high!! You have nothing to be afraid or ashamed of because you didn’t do anything wrong. You’re a Survivor! As my friend always say to me, “This too shall pass”

    • Thank you for sharing Aneesa. I’m so glad you’re here and connect. That is great. A fashion jewelry online boutique sounds fun. Can you email me the link? I’m always looking at that kinda stuff. 🙂

  64. My heart hurts with you as you pour out your heart. My husband and I have been through 7 years of difficult times as he had to leave his career 7 years ago this month due to a false accusation. He has struggled to find work and we have suffered financially. I have cried out to God and am always reminded when I think that He doesn’t hear me that He is always with me holding me up. Psalm 3:3 tells me that God “is a shield around me, my glory and the lifter of my head.” Just when I wonder how we will pay the next bill, He ALWAYS provides. He is so good and faithful! He is bringing you through this time and I am so encouraged to read that you wouldn’t change what you’re going through. It’s so easy to want to change your circumstances and to blame God for not preventing this “Job-like” trial in your life. I am so encouraged by your faith and for standing for the TRUTH when you could easily bail. I am praying for you as you navigate this fierce storm: praying that God surrounds you with strong Christian women who you can lean on, praying for the church to allow you to withdraw your membership, praying for restoration and overcoming, and praying for blessing upon blessing to be poured out upon you and your precious family. Ephesians 3:20: “Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to the power that is at work within us.” I am praying that you continue to tap into the mighty power of our Redeemer! Sending a big virtual hug to you today as I pray for you.

    In His Grip,
    Ann Acob

    • I’m sorry to hear about your husband Ann. It’s awesome to hear God provide. He has done the same with me in the past before as well. His power is majestic! Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. I treasure them. <3